A personal guest blog from a medicinal cannabis consumer.
I should like to share with you my experience with cannabis.
I am a 21-year-old male who has spent the last year in a lot of chronic pain. I also have depression and have very distrubed and unregular sleep.
I was put on anti-depressants, which completely messed me up. I was extremely high but ‘not at home’ on one of them for over a month. It’s been a very long year.
Add on top of this, my chronic pain was getting worse too. My G.P. has tried me on a lot of different painkillers including opiates which made little or no difference to my health.
There was one pain killer that slightly helped, which was Tramadol and so I tried upping the dose, being directed by my G.P. – the result was I spent 36 hours not being able to urinate and that damaged my bladder very badly. That was in June 2012 and even now I am still have problems urinating even though I’m on no pain medication.
The G.P. sent me to rheumatology, where they first diagnosed me on my first visit with fibromyalgia. Then on the second visit four months later, I saw a different doctor who said I dont have fibromyalgia, but I have some chronic pain condition; he said he couldnt help me and discharged me.
Obviously I was not very happy.
My G.P. sent me for a MRI to check if I had Multiple Sclerosis, as my symptoms closely match M.S. – this came back as negative and now my G.P. is sending me to neurology.
It has now been 13 months since I first went to my G.P. for help and all I’ve ended up with is more pain and a busted bladder! It has not been easy on my depression at all.
Now for the better part of my story …
I had been doing alot of research into the medicinal value of cannabis, so I decided a few weeks ago to try it for the first time.
When I was younger at school many of my friends smoked weed for fun; I didn’t really agree with it, but I didn’t mind. They were sound people, my friends. I had plenty of chances to smoke weed but I never once took them. I did not want to use it for recreational purposes.
Now after a year of pain and problems I had a reason in my mind, which allowed me to justify trying cannabis.
The effect was amazing. I had some Afghan hash I sourced, which was very high grade. My first time the high was amazing although a bit daunting too. However, after a couple of hours relaxing while high playing minecraft (which was fun!) I got up to walk and was amazed.
I had no pain in my legs at all. For the first time in years I walked without feeling pain in every step. My legs felt lightweight, as I was still high high; I went to sleep as it was late.
Overnight I had the best nights sleep in over seven years. I woke up refreshed and ready to get out of bed. This was unusual for me as the chronic pain makes getting up in the mornings very difficult.
When I got up to walk my legs were still pain free although I could gently feel the pain returning. I walked down the stairs for the first time in two years without my knees feeling like they were going to pop out at any moment!
I could not believe it at all! I was walking, I was actually walking normally and most importantly WITHOUT PAIN!
As the days passed I tried some medicinal strains of bud which were just as good for the pain relief.
Another thing, it’s helped me with is my depression. I’ve been able to deal with my thoughts and feelings without getting worried or depressed. I’ve been writing my thoughts and feelings in the form of poetry and short writings and they have helped me understand myself much better.
I could go on and on about how it is currently helping me. The one thing that upsets me however is I’m breaking the law in order to live my pain free life. So far I have cost the NHS a lot of money in G.P. visits, failed medications and expensive scans. The painkillers have only destroyed my bladder costing the NHS even more for my ongoing visits to urology and so on.
It’s amazing how a plant that is ‘illegal’ has given me so much of my life back. I cannot believe that technically I’m a criminal for taking the only medicine I know that stops pain and enables me to live a normal life … cannabis.